I keep trying to cry today, but I can’t.
All I feel in my heart is peace.
I am able to cook dinner and to play with my babies. I am able to give counsel to my husband and to make it to Bible study. All of these are evidences of God’s strength within me as part of my world crumbles.
My lips keep singing His praise, for this is all I know to do.
This is all I want to do.
I submerge myself in Scripture, allow worship music to fill my ears, and I wait for Jesus to speak…
I will not worship her cancer and the “whys” surrounding it.
I will worship I AM.
As Mother’s Day approaches
I want to introduce you to a miracle. Her name is “Foxy” Roxie and she is my mother.
My mother was first diagnosed with breast cancer in 2001. After being in remission for 5 ½ years, the cancer returned. It continued to spread into some of her organs, bones, and then into her brain. The doctors believed she wouldn’t make it to my wedding.
Then God blessed me with her presence as I gave birth to Jackson in December 2008.
And, as I gave birth to Katie in November 2010.
God allowed her to read the Bible study I recently published and to see the formation of One Degree Ministries. As I continue to share with her the things that God is teaching me, she reminds me of how proud of me she is, and that her dreams for my life have been surpassed.
How good is our God?
On Tuesday, her oncologist told us the news we knew we would eventually hear. The cancer has now spread throughout her entire body. Human treatment options are running out. There are limitations to what science and medications can do.
There are NO limitations to what our God can do.
“Bless the LORD, O my soul,
And all that is within me,
Bless his holy name!
Bless the LORD, O my soul,
And forget not all his benefits,
Who forgives all your iniquity,
Who heals all your diseases…”
~Psalm 103:1-3, ESV
So, as this particular Mother’s Day approaches I celebrate the miracle that my mother is. I celebrate the amount of time we have had together, and the amount that still remains. I am celebrating the fact that God will completely heal my mother the instant she sees Him face to face. She will never lose this battle.