I initially ran the following post on May 10, 2012. I want to repost it today, for there is an update that I need to share at the end of it. Words cannot express how much your prayers, support, and love mean to me. Thank you! Rejoicing through tears…
My Mother is a Miracle
I keep trying to cry today, but I can’t.
All I feel in my heart is peace.
I am able to cook dinner and to play with my babies. I am able to give counsel to my husband and to make it to Bible study. All of these are evidences of God’s strength within me as part of my world crumbles.
- My mom, daughter, and me (Christmas 2011)
My lips keep singing His praise, for this is all I know to do.
This is all I want to do.
I submerge myself in Scripture, allow worship music to fill my ears, and I wait for Jesus to speak…
I will not worship her cancer and the “whys” surrounding it.
I will worship I AM.
As Mother’s Day approaches
I want to introduce you to a miracle. Her name is “Foxy” Roxie and she is my mother.
- When we first met, October 2, 1975. Gotta love the 70s!
My mother was first diagnosed with breast cancer in 2001. After being in remission for 5 ½ years, the cancer returned. It continued to spread into some of her organs, bones, and then into her brain. The doctors believed she wouldn’t make it to my wedding.
Then God blessed me with her presence as I gave birth to Jackson in December 2008.
- My dad, me with Jack, and my mom
And, as I gave birth to Katie in November 2010.
- My dad, mom, me with Katie, & Chad.
God allowed her to read the Bible study I recently published and to see the formation of One Degree Ministries. As I continue to share with her the things that God is teaching me, she reminds me of how proud of me she is, and that her dreams for my life have been surpassed.
How good is our God?
On Tuesday (May 8th 2012), her oncologist told us the news we knew we would eventually hear. The cancer has now spread throughout her entire body. Human treatment options are running out. There are limitations to what science and medications can do.
There are NO limitations to what our God can do.
“Bless the LORD, O my soul,
And all that is within me,
Bless his holy name!
Bless the LORD, O my soul,
And forget not all his benefits,
Who forgives all your iniquity,
Who heals all your diseases…”
~Psalm 103:1-3, ESV
So, as this particular Mother’s Day approaches I celebrate the miracle that my mother is. I celebrate the amount of time we have had together, and the amount that still remains. I am celebrating the fact that God will completely heal my mother the instant she sees Him face to face. She will never lose this battle.
She is close to winning.
And now…one HUGE reason to celebrate:
On Monday October 8th, 2012 (exactly 5 months after we received the news I mentioned above), my mother, Roxie Davis, entered Heaven.
My mother won her race!
Hours before, I stood beside her bed and sang “Amazing Grace” and “Jesus Loves Roxie.” I knew she heard me, for her expression calmed at the sound of my voice. What a beautiful moment that I shall cherish forever. If only my eyes could have seen what was going on in the spiritual realm of that room! My heart was at peace as I realized that her eyes would soon behold God’s glory in its most fullest sense.
At around 1:15 pm, my dear friend called and I stepped out into the hallway to talk with her. I returned 11 minutes and 14 seconds later. Roxie passed quietly and peacefully during those 11 minutes, with her faithful and loving husband of 40 years right by her side.
I will continue to worship I AM as the years without her on this earth pass…
Mom, I will miss you-but there are no goodbyes for those of us who are in Christ Jesus! You are in the presence of the One I pray to, write about, and worship. It is because of Him, that I mourn today with hope and joy. You finished your race “for a cure” in the arms of THE CURE. I will be seeing you later… I love you.
Thank you for walking with me friends.
Looking to Jesus ALWAYS,
“…let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking to Jesus, the founder and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is seated at the right hand of the throne of God.”
~Hebrews 12:1b-2 ESV